From Homeschooler, to Public Schooler

The Adventures of being a "homeschooler" in a Public School.

It’s Done

  I am sorry to announce that this will be my final post on this blog. My parents and I have decided that my safety was being compromised at this school and we made the decision to pull me out before the year ended. Thank you to everyone who gave me advice and read my crazy stories.

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I really want to vomit at what I

I really want to vomit at what I witnessed. On Friday morning, I was in my art class listening to some kid (Jake) talk about how much he hated this school and everyone in it. Though there was part of me that agreed with him, what he said next, made me sick. There’s a boy who’s in that class that is one of the sweetest people I know but he’s not very popular amongst some kids as he’s “weird”. Jake suddenly turned his attention towards the boy and yelled “Why don’t you just kill yourself?!”. I turned towards my teacher who had witnessed the whole thing but she just turned away and made herself busy to avoid the awkward battle that was about to break out. I have witnessed so much bullying at this school and quite frankly, I was tired of it. I jumped out of my seat and started yelling at Jake for being so rude and inconsiderate. Of course I was the one who got in trouble but it was 100% worth it to let that victim know there was someone who would stand up for him. My art teacher scolded me for yelling and being so rude but if anyone should be punished it’s her. As a teacher, it’s your job to create a safe learning environment for everyone and not to ignore comments like the one Jake yelled. I am so ready to be done with this school. And now for a question, do you think it’s worth it to talk to a counselor about what happened and get Jake in trouble? 

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Art

The other day my art teacher called me a bad artist… I feel like I should show her this drawing I completed in half and hour 😛Image

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Boys, boys, and more boys.

If you have ever been enrolled in a public middle school, you know that boys can cause just as much drama as the girls. Despite what everyone thinks, guys can be mean, nasty backstabbers too. So far I’ve tried not to dwell too deep into my ‘personal’ life but I feel today is a good day to make a small exception. About two weeks ago, my boyfriend had broken up with me for no apparent reason. I was pretty furious as you might expect a girl to be. A week passed without us talking or having any communication, and then came Friday… I was putting my books back in my locker when one of my good friends ‘Kelly’ walked up behind me with a small letter in her hand. She handed it to me and scurried off to her locker. I peered down after her before tearing open the note. It was only about a half a page but that half-page was filled with some really sappy, cute stuff from my ex ‘Drake’. At the bottom of this cutesy note, Drake asked me if I would be willing to give him a second chance. I thought long and hard about this for a few hours and came to verdict that I would give him another try (mistake!). He was thrilled when I told him but his excitement quickly wore off. 

  Come Wednesday, he began ignoring me. After a long day of school, I texted him asking why he was so mad at me. He replied “No I just cant get attached to someone thats moving and I didnt know u were moving so sorry”. The funny thing about this is the fact that I’m only “moving” for two months and then coming back. This made me even more furious than before and I was ready to punch him. The next day made everything worse. Kelly ran up to me that morning asking me if I knew Damion was cheating on me. I froze, I mean, I knew he wasn’t the greatest guy but… Cheating?? She started ranting about how today Drake had gotten back with his ex-girlfriend ‘Maddy’ and that they were being really intimate that morning. Sighing, I told her how we had broken up last night. I only wish that made a difference to my heart, even though we were “over”, everything was so fresh and I couldn’t see how he could have moved on in a day. The rest of that day consisted of concerned friends and acquaintances asking me about what had happened and me re-living every moment over and over again. Well children, the moral of this story is that people don’t change over the course of a week so be careful who you’re giving second chances to.  

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Bullies

Well I have finally encountered my first bully, I guess it was bound to happen being the person that I am. This bully just happens to be one of my ex-boyfriends. We broke up about two weeks ago and it was a totally clean breakup, no fights or tears were shed. The other day, I was talking with his friend ‘Drake’ about it and he was astonished when I claimed that it had been a clean break. I asked him why that was so strange and he told me about the conversation he had with him the day before. “He called you a bitch and said you were fucking ugly.” Drake said. I was crushed, someone I trusted and once cared for was turning out to be a bully. I asked Drake if anything else happened and he sighed. When Drake tried defending me (he has developed a crush on me), my ex tackled him and they ended up getting in a pretty gnarly fist fight. I was furios. I posted a status on ‘Facebook’ about how I was sad because someone called me a bitch etc. My friend ‘Bailey’ immediately commented on it and asked who it was because she was also being bullied and she was wondering if it was the same person. I wasn’t really afraid to say his name so I did, ‘Doug’. She commented a few minutes later that him and his group of friends had been bullying her all year. I was at this guys throat at this point. So that is my bullying story and if I see him or any of his friends talking crap to/about my friend… I am going straight to the principal.

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SPRING BREAK

Yayyy it’s finally here! My family and I will be heading down to Belize for 9 days to get away from all the drama of society. I will post pictures when I return 🙂

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Fountain Valley School of Colorado

So about 4 months ago, I decided I wanted to apply to Fountain Valley School of Colorado; a private college preparatory boarding school. My brother is currently enrolled as a sophomore there and he loves it. So yesterday I was having one of my “down” days, nothing was going well and the universe seemed out to get me. But then my dad delivered the news that I had been accepted into FVS!! Now comes to long and difficult journey to success.

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Make New Friends and Ditch the Old.

My friend “Kellie” is especially good at this technique. She struggles with ways to deal with jealousy and she tends to try and backlash toward the person who “made” her jealous. The first day at my new school I began making new friends and being the social bird I am. When I enrolled myself in her school I wanted to hang out all day; eat lunch together, walk from class to class, and just have a good time. After my second day I realized that wasn’t going to be the case, we didn’t spend any time together at school and we began to hang out less and less away from school as the first week passed. By Monday of my second week, we barely even exchanged friendly smiles in the crowded halls. We still sat next to each other on the bus (due to assigned seating) and texted occasionally but I could feel our friendship fading away. I was making new friends and the opportunity to  spend time together was overrun by homework and sports. I didn’t really mind though, not until she decided to rub it in my face that we weren’t the closest of friends anymore. I had no idea she was even remotely jealous that I was making new friends, she showed no effort to make plans or anything of that nature so I made the assumption that she had moved on. A girl, “Kiki”, moved in a street away from me and Kellie and she began riding our bus. Kellie immediately saw an opportunity to try and flip the jealousy to me. She would kick me out of my seat so that Kiki could sit next to her and loudly discuss their plans for the weekend while Kellie glared over at me from time to time. When the bus squeaks to a stop, the two new “best friends” they bolt off the bus and take longer routes to avoid me. It’s just immature and I don’t understand why she is doing it, I would love to still be friends but she’s ruining her chances.

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Pacifiers and Probation’s

Don’t get me wrong I am SO incredibly grateful for the people (I’m going to keep them anonymous so I’ll call them Jessie and Debbie) who accepted me into their tight group of friends. But to my dismay Jessie and Debbie are turning out to be quite different than I had first assumed. They weren’t exactly me “type” in friends, blonde, popular, and “perfect”; but I figured I may as well give them a chance and as the old adage goes, “don’t judge a book by it’s cover’. And boy was their cover misplaced, they turned out not to be perfect preppy girls but actually trouble makers. “Jessie” just got off of probation from hospitalizing a 15 year old girl who threw a rock at her 4 year old sister, a bit dramatic but then again I can understand the rage she must have felt. Furthermore, “Debbie” is currently on probation for reasons she refuses to share with me, though she did say “It was probation or 2 years in juvy. I chose probation.” The craziest part of all this to me is the fact that these kids are 8th graders, that means Debbie was threatened with incarceration being only 14 years old!

Now to get to the pacifiers. Let’s say her name is Sarah. She is another one of those popular girls but with a twist of stoner and scene girl, everyone loves her and thinks she is “hot stuff” as one person said. Sarah always wears a laniard around her neck with assorted key chains and random junk dangling from it, but today I noticed something strange entangled in the scraps of different things. Just as I noticed it, she began to suck on it…. And continue to do so for two class periods straight. I found it so odd and I couldn’t decide if she was trying to be cute or if she may actually still suck a ‘binky’.

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